Since I discovered porn on the internet in my teens, I've been obsessed with femdom related themes. Most of which, I would watch or read about, masturbate to (daily) and often right after I'd cum, I would tell myself "I could or would never actually do that".
When I was younger, I would watch strapon pegging regularly. Sometimes, I would get so into it, I'd try a finger in my ass. It was never spectacular and usually made me feel foolish for getting all sticky and dirty. Yet my desire to view it never went away. I collected it even. To me, it was always going to be my secret fetish. Something I went to when I wanted to get off. Nothing more. I heard a few women make comments at how "gay" a guy who would let a female use a strapon on him was. Those instances settled it for me... I would never admit to being open to try it for fear of rejection.
My wife discovered my fetish over time and we dabbled in a little. We even purchased a strapon harness and small beginner dildo attachment for it. We gave it a go about two or three times, but it was early on in our marriage and I don't feel either of was comfortable with what was happening to really enjoy the role reversal. It was an experience that wasn't as bad I thought it would be, she didn't reject me when she found out about it. But it didn't live up to the fantasy either. Honestly, I believe we weren't ready yet. We hardly even talked dirty to each other during vanilla sex then, something we do very well now. To me, that just goes to show that there was a lack on comfort there. At least to the level that it exists now.
Well, that was until 2 days ago. Something had come over my wife and she began to let the domme of my fantasies loose. Without a lot of warning, two nights in a row, she finger fucked my ass while jerking off my cock. She had done this in the past but it NEVER felt as good as it did these past two times. The 2nd day, she literally gave me a innie orgasm and I didn't even think that was possible. I've heard of it but in my past anal experiences, wrote it off as a myth.
Hoping she will continue to play with me in this way. It's a kink that's been in my head for a very long time.
Sounds like you two are off to a very nice start. I can imagine how you felt being at her mercy as she took you this way. Perhaps in time the strap on play will work too.
ReplyDeleteI agree with you, if you try something and it isn't the right time, it won't feel right, just as it didn't before, but now you two are growing together differently and perhaps one day the strap on will be a great way for you to connect.
And it has zero to do with being gay, if she wants to take your ass with a strap on and you want to give that to her, it has to do with control, dominance, submission and love. You would simply be obeying her and surrendering it to her, and there is nothing gay about that, it is very sexy.
That was really well said, Miss Christina!
DeleteAwe, I want to be fucked in the ass by my wife/.....
ReplyDelete;-( *pouty face*
lol
DeleteIt's still such a strange desire to me. I crave it but I have no idea why. That's part of the reason I decided to start this blog. Maybe sharing and reading other peoples experiences on their blogs, will help me learn more about myself. I've only been on here 4-5 days now and I've already discovered a lot.
Miss Christina, ty again for sharing your thoughts. I'm not usually the type to open up, especially on the internet, glad you took the time to comment.
ReplyDeleteIt was an amazing experience. Most men (presumably) never experience or think about what it is like to be on the receiving end. To be penetrated.
It made me feel extremely vulnerable. It's such a different experience to feel pain and pleasure at the same time. Very intense.
I think this is the best place to open up, there are so many of us here that are in the same boat, we can't share most of this with any or many of the people in our lives...I am lucky to have a handful of friends I am honest with but still they don't want the blow by blow like kinky on line friends do. I hope you and your wife keep this up.
ReplyDeleteMy wife "discovered" anal play by lightly tickling that area. The sensations are intense. Like you, I have a strong desire for her to take me with a strapon. We have a feeldoe strapless strapon but have not used it yet. I have "asked" her to use it but that's how things go in an FLR... I can't really ask.
ReplyDeleteShe has a reservation around the gay thing. She will sometimes flippantly say "why don't you get some guy to do that for you?". I am not interested in that. What appeals to me about strapon play is the role reversal and the dominance that she would be displaying over me. That is very hot.
A few times a year, she will insert her finger or sometimes a toy in there. I don't have a lot of experience with being penetrated, but so far for me it has been 90% mental and 10% physical pleasure. The fact that she accepts me and loves me enough to do something that kinky is quite satisfying. I would like to explore prostate stimulation more; it's got quite a bit of hype anyway. But the ultimate would be the submission I would feel by being 'opened up' and watching her big tits swaying as she thrust into me. I hope this happens!
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